I never thought I’d actually be glad to see a new Monday, but today, I am.
I’d been feeling a bit ‘meh’ the majority of last week when it felt like all of a sudden, I had hit rock bottom. I don’t know what triggered it per say, and because of that, I couldn’t get my head around it.
My motivation depleted entirely, I’m not usually a morning person anyway, but even come early afternoon, I still had zero drive to accomplish or tackle anything. I felt tired but I hadn’t even done anything to make myself tired. My brain was just full of nothing. I realised I had lost my spark to create anything, I was trying so hard to inspire myself with past work, other peoples’ work, pinterest.. literally ANYTHING to try and get that oomph back. But it just wan’t happening.
When you run your own business, it all falls on you to keep it going, it’s up to you to bring out new ideas or concepts, this is usually the best reason for being your own boss – you can create what YOU want, but when you get a blue mood.. It can be the worst feeling that you can’t ‘do it’ any more. The 9-5 isn’t possible when your brain is normally in overdrive ticking away with new thoughts, so I was feeling very inadequate in my slump.
Trying to establish what had caused my low mood, it dawned on me that I was doing the same old comparison trick, ‘they have better ideas’, ‘they’ve made so many more products’, ‘they’re always doing more than me’. What had been simply passing thoughts had actually been taken seriously in my head without me even realising.
Isn’t it crazy that we can hear 10 positive things, but if we hear 1 negative thing, that’s the one that sticks with us? After a lengthy chat with my husband when I was finally able to actually express what was going on in my head, all be it a bit staggered and parts probably didn’t make much sense, I felt so much better. I was able to accept that, yes I was in a shitty mood, in a shitty place, but most importantly – I could now address it and try and move on.
I enjoyed what was left of my weekend and made the most of it. I put all of the ‘stuff’ behind me and remembered to go and have fun, smile, get some fresh air.
I now have some catching up to do from last week, which I’m sure I’ll get through eventually, but I’m so pleased to have reached a new Monday on a brighter note than last week.
I’m not sure how much help this could be to anyone who may be reading, but if you’re having a shitty time, just know that you are not alone. Sometimes just verbalising what’s wrong to someone is all it takes to take the weight off and think about it as something you can tackle one part at a time, rather than something huge and impossible to manage.
Here are some tips I would like to share to anyone struggling with their motivation, creativity or just general mental well being:
1- Let yourself be sad.
It’s so important to actually let your emotions run, don’t try to cover it up, because it won’t go away and could just hit back harder the next time you feel sad.
2- Break it down.
Whether it be via letter, or just a brain storm, or to someone you love – get it out! Try and work out the cause of what’s been bothering you, see if you can reach the unconscious part that has the control over you.
3- Address it.
If you’ve managed to get to the root of the problem – you’ve done the hard part! You can address your fear/worry/stress head on and go enjoy your life. You don’t even have to tackle it yet if you don’t feel ready to, but just know that you can pop it to one side and come back to it later.
4- Get back to you.
What makes you feel most grounded? For some, it’s the beach. For me, it’s the forest. Something about feeling so small in comparison to nature, helps you put your problems into perspective. Getting out and getting fresh air can feel so healing, it also helps me feel like I’ve accomplished something by getting outside, which spurs me on to accomplish more things and before I know it, I’m back to making my to-do lists and getting back into the swing of motivation.